What Next

Now in NYC.... spending most of the time at the shore.... been a long time since I have seen the ocean.
humbling.....

I think my problems are so large and the truth of it is they don't exist. Just thoughts in my mind, made from mind.. I just keep for-getting that little fact. Sometimes thoughts (memories) seem so real especially when put in my face by others in the family... attached directally to the emotion switch...
old hurt held on to by or made up of energy... I think I can find a better ways of using this energy ....

forward movement.....

now do I stay in a situation in which I feel that I am allowing myself to be in the line of fire from the unconscience other..even if he is family.. why stay where there is a weight of judgment tied to me.. need to be free from that .....

is there true freedom in leaving the source of irritation or should I find peace within .. maybe finding peace is in the knowing
and ride it out until the calm comes..acceptence of the unknowing ego filled mind.. can only think small and limited .. has not learned to move out from that way of being....

No need to be in the line of fire from the un-other....I know he doesn't know... get out of the wind....